where were you when i needed you most?

[katrina vanessa]

katrina vanessa
( tag: rick channing )

katrina wiped her eyes, red from crying in her dormitory. paige hadn't been there often, but since kat had basically skipped the day, she had brought her all her homework and had gone to every single one of her classes (which was basically all of the ones possible to have) and gotten the homework. kat had been working on it for the past two hours, but now she sat on her bed, just thinking about zoltin. she wished they had had normal lives, without magic... alright, that was overdoing it, but well... yeah. none of this... drama and stuff like that.

she ran her fingers through her hair and grabbed her bag, along with her wand and her notebook that had about a dozen pages filled with her spilling out all her emotions on every page. and so far, those had been pretty sad and... well, lonely. and the best place for loneliness was the forbidden forest. exactly where she was heading. she walked across the grounds, purpose in her face and in her steps. she finally made it within the cover of the trees and finally let a few hundred more tears spill down her cheeks. she leaned against one of the thick trunks and stared up at the sky. she exhaled and wiped her eyes again.

"why does this have to happen to me?" she asked aimlessly to no one. the first quidditch match of the season was in a few days and this was no way for her to behave. she was the captain, for god's sake. it was only when she heard a loud crunch of leaves from behind her did she gasp and spin around. she saw nothing, but as the crackling of leaves came closer she took a few steps back. finally, a few seconds later, a little grey bunny rabbit came hobbling out from the bushes.

she sighed, glad to know it wasn't something evil that would want to eat her alive, and took a few more steps back, clutching her chest right over her heart. she smiled at the sight of the furry creature until she backed right into something warm and hard. she screamed and spun around, coming face to face with those very familiar, but beautiful eyes.

[Rick Channing]

Ricky
No More Tears

Rick was still fuming at Zoltin. He understood that it was supposed to be a secret, but he didn't trust him and that hurt Rick more than anything. To let off steam, Mr. Channing had skipped all of his classes today and decided to spend the entire time gettting into as much trouble as possible, without being caught. His "interesting" way of getting out his anger had led to a whole day filled with frustrated teachers and hysterical younger students, too bad no one would ever know it was he who had single-handedly pulled everything off. He was the un-appreciated prankster. Possibly the greatest pranker since the Weasley's and no body really knew about it.

But all the prank pulling and grinning faces didn't help him, he was still frustrated. So, he had taken off to his favorite place, the Forbidden Forest. In was un-appreciated just like him. Everyone thought that it was spooky and frightening, but....well actually it was spooky and frightening but that was what he loved about it. He never knew what was going to pop out at him and it made him shiver in anticipation. Maybe something dark and sinister that he could do battle with to work out some of this pent up rage. Or a small, injured creature that he could take to Lana for her to nurse back to health, her joy always made him happier and she did love animals. Or...his best friend's [ahem, EX best friend's] girlfriend?

He hadn't expected her to pop out of a corner at all so he was actually a little stunned. Katrina O'neil in the forbidden forest? Now when did that happen? He didn't speak for a little bit, taking in the scene in front of him. She was backing away from a......bunny? Then she collided with his large frame. "Hey there Ka-" he began, but then he saw her eyes were red from crying. His brow furrowed in worry. "Kitty, what happened?" he cooed as he stroked the side of her face softly. "I've seen two girls crying in 24 hours and neither of them were crying because of something I did! I think the world's ending." He wanted to make her laugh, this not laughing Katrina was just frighteningly unnatural.

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[katrina vanessa]

katrina vanessa
( tag: rick channing )

kat glanced away immediately, not even going to bother telling rick to just take his hand away. she didn't even have the strength to remind him that... well, it wasn't any use now. she doubted that they were even together at all anymore. she had just... she had just... oh, goddammit. just say it.... she had just dumped zoltin. she never knew she was going to be the one to end it. heck, she didn't even know it was going to end. fo some reason, she had always pictured them graduating from hogwarts, getting married and just spending their lives together... maybe it really wasn't meant to be. really. like she honestly believed that right now. she wiped her eyes again quickly, trying to cover up any traces of her tears.

kat smiled weakly. humor wasn't exactly what she needed right now. what she needed as a good, firm talking to. someone telling her everything was going to be alright and that the world isn't really ending around her, like rick had said. except kat was serious. she felt like dying... or going to sleep and never waking up. all of that just... just to see chasper's face when she saw what she had done. well, technically it wasn't chasper's fault, but katrina needed someone to blame right now and she had already gone through zoltin's faults, trying to make herself feel better... but had then come to realize she loved his faults, and that just made him perfect. and that was why her heart was ripping in two. she kicked up some dirt and leaves in front of her before resting her head on rick's chest. the steady beating of his heart soothing her.

"we're over." she managed to choke out. "zol - him and me. we're over." she repeated, not bringing herself to even say his name. "he likes someone else." she added, her legs giving way as she nearly fell onto her head, but managed to stay on her feet, though she felt really dizzy. "he... likes someone... else." she said to herself again, in a hoarse whisper as the waterworks felt like coming back again.

[Rick Channing]

Ricky
Broken Promises

"Over?" Rick could not even begin to mask the shock on his face. The boy who was pretty darn good at masking emotion, was completely and totally stunned. Kat and Zoltin...over? That was the last thing he ever thought would happen. Never in a million years would those two not be the giggling little happy couple that he knew and loved [used to on Zoltin's part]. They were going to be married, Rick was almost sure that he'd be the best man as he watched them take their vows. He used to joke with Zoltin that the day they broke up, the whole universe would collapse. Well know, to Kat it seemed like it was. Rick's eyes shone with pity as the tears began to fall down her face. He hated it when girls cried, he felt so heart broken when a beautiful thing was so depressed.

But, liking someone else? How was that possible? Zoltin had never liked anyone but Katrina, Rick would know. He used to walk around with Z-man and point out girls that he thought were hot. His best friend [EX!] would just shrug and turn away. It almost had frustrated Ricky how much in love these two were. He was about to ask her 'who?' but then she literally collapsed against his chest and he couldn't do it. His arms wrapped around her in a comforting embrace as he rested his chin against the top of her head. "It's alright Katrina. Shhhh it's okay." He was good at this whole comforting business, but he didn't know he'd be doing it so much this year.

Her legs were wobbling and he didn't know how long she'd be able to stand. The powerful lad scooped her up into his arms and carried her over to a log where he sat down, Katrina in his lap. He leaned against the trunk of the tree and let her nestle her head against his chest. He mummered softly to her waiting for the tears to stop.

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[katrina vanessa]

katrina vanessa
and you don't know me

katrina ran her fingers through her hair and held him so close to her that it hurt. she slipped her fingers off from around his neck and quickly pulled her hair back into a ponytail. best keep her hair out of her face. her face was going to be tear stained from crying, and having sticky hair probably wasn't going to the help the cause. she knew that muggle girls did when something like this happened. they called heir friends over, and eat a huge tub of ice cream while her friends would pity her and try to make her feel better by telling her what a jerk the guy was. unfortunately for her, zoltin wasn't a jerk. he was never a jerk. and katrina didn't seek pity. she would seek reassurance. that everything was going to be alright.

but of course, it wasn't. she was internally bleeding the way she cried openly like this. she hadn't cried in months. and no, kat wasn't a cry-baby, but she wasn't all that stiff and tough either. she wanted to become an auror, because she knew it would help her become strong and tough and ready to face anything. she took rick's soothing words to heart. it was going to be okay. his words made her believe them. something she hadn't done in years.

"i just c-can't believe i-it." she stuttered, crumpling his shirt in one of her hands. she felt bad for it, since rick was probably under so much pressure, but she couldn't help it. she didn't hate him, and she was never hurt by him because she had never given her the chance. he had gained a reputation because of some girl back when kat was in her first year. some girl who told rumors about him. kat had hated that girl. a one kitty larsen, but there wasn't much to be done about it now. but it was kind of similar. in some strange, twisted way. not that kat could think of it in a state like this. she loosened her grip and sat up straight, taking deep, slow breaths to calm herself as best she could. she glanced at rick and his shirt and smiled slightly, "sorry..." she said softly, fighting the urge to laugh. rick seemed so caring that it was insane. was he like this with other girls? ha, of course he was. but kat still felt special. maybe that was why those other girls had fallen for him anyway, despite his negative reputation. maybe that's why kat thought of him as hot again... and she hadn't done that since first year.

[Rick Channing]

Ricky
Seeking Comfort

Rick just let her cry. Sometimes people just needed to let everything out. Tears were a release. After bottling up emotion for so long it has to come out of somewhere, and for most it was the tear ducts. His heart was wrenching out towards her though. He wanted to comfort her and get those tears to cease. He had seen a lot of crying, but usually the tears were about him so he generally knew how to handle them. This time they were about Zoltin. He caught himself wondering how Zoltin was feeling about this. But, then he realized that they weren't on speaking terms anymore. Maybe this was Z-man's fault too. Maybe he'd been keeping secrets from Kat just like he had been keeping secrets from Ricky.

Katrina had wrinkled his shirt into a fist, but he didn't mind. It's not like he really cared about any particular shirt, and it was already tear stained anyway. The tears were slowing down though which made him happier. "It's fine," he replied with a warm smile. Instinctively, his hand moved to her face and his thumb stroked away the remnants of her tears. She was looking up at him with those wide, sparkling eyes, and against his better judgment, his hand lingered there.

She was curled up on his lap like a...kitten actually. He chuckled and pulled her close against him. She was warm and he liked the feeling of her lying against him. Warning lights were flashing in his head. This is too close....

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[katrina vanessa]

katrina vanessa
but i wish you did

kat had never really been emotionally stable as a child. at one moment she would break down crying, and then the next she'd been freakishly happy and ready for anything. right now... well, she hadn't felt this way since... since that time she had found out that secret zoltin had been keeping from her for so long. even when she had gone to visit his family in russia, there had been a little tension at first, and a few hushed conversations about a few things with zoltin and his parents, but then all had been well. and then, during their fifth year, she had found out and it had not been a pretty sight at all. there had been tears, confusion and hurt. but it was over. and that was the only time she had had to calm herself down before. right now, it was the first time in a year... but this hurt more than before. this hurt a lot.

kat wiped her eyes and hugged her knees to her chest, resting her head against rick's chest. she listened to his calming heartbeat for a while before she felt his arms wrap around her like a weird sort of hug. kat smiled despite her sinking feelings and the fact that her heart had been broken in two. she glanced up at ricky, a small, sad smile on her face before she tucked some hair behind her ear. his breath was hot on her neck and even though she was just so heartbroken, she felt a small leap in her chest that seemed quite familiar, except it had a sort of... urgentness that she had never ever felt before. it was all new to her, as was the amount of pink and lavender rushing into her eyes. she had never really let those feelings of sadness and hurt and blue wash away so quickly. she sat up a little straighter, now eye level with him and as she stared into his eyes... well, a familiar woosh and a quick intake of breath was felt and she quickly had to look down for fear of trying to show him her emotions, the ones she tried so hard to hide.

[occ: if mercy's reading this, zoltin can come in now if he wants... to sort of... spy... O_o]

[Rick Channing]

Ricky
Desire

Kat sat up and when her eyes met his, his heart began to pound. He couldn't help himself, all of the feelings he had ever had for her began to pour back into his head. He felt warm all over and his stomach did that little flippy thing that he hated so much. He almost felt like he was going to blush, but luckily he squashed that before it happened. However, the thing he couldn't seem to hide right now though was...desire. His eyes ran slowly over her lips and his thoughts wandering to the secret little cravings he had been hiding for so long. He couldn't help himself, she was so sweet and gentle, he wondered if kissing her would be the same. 'No! No!' he wrestled with himself inwardly. He couldn't do that to his best fri-'Ex....ex best friend' stated a pesky little voice in his head.

Well that was true. Ricky had ended their friendship and clearly, Kat had just ended their relationship. So, technically, Rick would be doing nothing wrong if he just leaned in and. Wait, that would be taking advantage of her! He couldn't do that, not to his Kat. It would ruin their friendship, everything. Rick fought to keep his head clear from this unquenchable want, but it wasn't helping that was was sitting on his lap; so close, so obtainable. When she breathed in sharply and looked away, Rick mistook it as something else being wrong.

Instantly, he went into protective mode. "What's wrong?" he inquired softly. But, he reached out [like he usually did] to stroke her face. When his fingers touched her cheek, she glanced up. They were barely inches apart and the painfully strong desire returned. He wasn't even thinking straight as his thumb gently brushed against her bottom lip. Her breaths were short now and he could feel them because their noses were almost touching.

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[katrina vanessa]

katrina vanessa
just do it, and don't look back

her heart raced for a few moments before she felt the need to look away. rick's voice sounded for a moment in her mind, but it seemed so far away even though he was right beside her. she was so confused... argh! were she and zoltin seriously, one hundred percent over? she mentally scolded herself for thinking that. of course they were! why else would she have left like that had they not been? kat took a few deep breaths before glancing back up at rock again. his eyes seemed to basically tell her what he was thinking, kind of like her own, but in a different way. and she could tell that he knew what she was thinking and that he wanted it to. obviously he had no problems with it, and no problems about if zoltin was still in the picture or not... maybe they had had a fight?

who knew, but kat wasn't about to take any chances. she remembered that afternoon in the trophy room, how fun it had been, and yet... how much she wanted this to happen. it hurt her, but she needed it so much. she needed some way to relieve her stress... what better way to do it than using what she had right now? she shook her head and finally inhaled, "no. no, nothing's wrong." she said, repeating the no a little more confidently. she kept her body firmly pressed to his and even though she had felt it moments again, his hot breath against her lips seemed to make her dizzy with lust or whatever the hell you'd call this, she wasn't sure.

but they sat there for a few more painful moments, to kat, before something finally happened. kat shifted, and somehow it was like... meeting zoltin all over again... except different. their lips met in a sweet but powerful kiss. but the only problem was, with kat's eyes fluttering shut, she saw rick in front of her, but the thing was... she felt zoltin kissing her. it had only been an hour ago, but she felt as though he was right here. and that was what she went on, no matter how wrong that was, because she just needed to feel this want and this need that was directed at her.

occ: alright. too mushy, but you two shall both live. :P mercy can post nowww... XD